Monday, June 30, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
This go round, I was awake alright. A friend and I went for a long weekend, though it was not near loooong enough as I would have liked. Arthur, an aged New York native kicked off our visit with a boat tour of the harbor. Arthur was convinced that we wouldn't want to take in too much historical information about the city because it was late in the evening. He said, people don't really retain history past dusk. I wish I'd had the guts to playfully take Arthur by the collar and tell him I didn't traverse hundreds of miles for a joy ride. Of course I didn't.
The next 72 hours were spent traversing the city by foot. Next time, I'm packing my moon shoes. We covered a lot of ground, saw a lot, experienced each diverse neighborhood. And with every borough, I found myself asking, "could I make a life here?"
Maybe my problem is that I'm forever unsatisfied... thinking the grass will be greener on the other side, or maybe I'd really like to entertain the idea of moving to the big city. Perhaps I'd be recharged by the life and culture of such a place. It's possible that I'd find my niche there. It is the mecca of journalism, after all. Not to mention Felicity lived and thrived there. Like her, I could become an employee of Dean and Deluca, spend my summertime evenings watching movies at Bryant Park, and riding the subways like a pro.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
My work relationships are perpetually challenging- probably the most difficult thing on my plate at the moment. And, I know that through them, I am being taught a multitude of lessons, particularly about my sin and pride. It seems like the minute I acknowledge that I am being refined, my ugliness pokes its head out again. I just pray that I can be a gentle, even-tempered person. That I can really be "content with second place, quick to forgive and offense" (Colossians 3). These are the words that I began my day with, entering the workplace with hopes that I could and would spend less energy being against things. I read something that said the less time we spend in conflict, the more time and energy we have to invest in our creative growth.
With every fiber of my being, I know these things. I know that the Lord is removing my impurities, refining me with fire. But, I have never in my life been around people that challenge me to implement my faith in e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g the way I feel so incapable of doing now.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
"My dear children, let's not just talk about love; let's practice real love. This is the only way we'll know we're living truly, living in God's reality. It's also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves." 1 John 3:18-20 (the msg, emphasis mine)