Some (More) Things to Be Glad About

Waiting on the arrival of a recently ordered-off-after book.

Spending an afternoon in with a thumbprint pottery mug (c/o this one) resting on my sternum in between sips of warm, strong coffee.

All the while... wearing a (too-big) sweatshirt and (questionably too-tight) leggings.

Treasures Untold

In this here book, Kathleen Norris details a story once told her by a curmudgeon of a man she sort-of knew. He and his wife were given a leather embossed Bible by his grandfather on their wedding day. As per custom, they wrote him a thank you note and even verbally expressed their gratitude for the gift. Yeah, yeah, they were thankful. But, did they read the thing? Not a chance. It wasn't long before the gift was shelved in a closet.

But, gramps wouldn't let them forget it.

"How do you like that Bible?," he'd ask again and again.

"Oh, it's very nice. Thanks so much," the couple would reply, growing weary with every repetition of the scene. They were appreciative. Why wouldn't he let it rest?

Years later, the man would understand when he discovered that the gift-giver had placed 20 dollar bills intermittently throughout the pages of the Good Book. He had done so, knowing full well that his grandson wouldn't turn the pages to find them. There were over $1000 dollars tucked into the chapters of the book. It took him years to find it out, and cost him a pocketful of regret.

It's the same for me, though I know there are treasures to be found between the lines. I pray for "mine eyes to be opened to behold the wondrous things in [His] law," and yet I find my readings to be selfish, and often, quite superficial.

I know there are treasures untold in the ink. Even better, I know that in the reading, the Living God can and will write on the tablet of my human heart with His very Spirit. Let it be so.

Recipe for a Happy Palentines Day

Ingredient #1: Fresh Flowers. According to dear Edith, "In Holland, fresh cut flowers are generally considered a necessity. We are told that even the very poor people in Holland put aside a guilder or two for flowers every week." I think it most important to give priority to surrounding yourself with beauty, assigning value to the environment as a factor in fostering imagination, gratitude, relationships, et. al.

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Ingredient(s) #2: Sweeties. I served these at my own little shindig last weekend. (Martha! How do I love thee?) and these (a close-to-heaven taste c/o Jolly Ole England). For a refreshing beverage, I simply added a spritz of lime juice to raspberry ginger ale.

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Ingredient #3: Crafty supplies including, but not limited to the following: colored pencils, markers, notecards, patterned papers, ribbons, scissors, paste, tape, glitter.

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What a lovely scape of creativity and crafts. My favorite thing to share with friends. Some of our cards ended up looking like (our own versions of) these playing card valentines and these heart flowers. I can't get enough of Ms. Stewart and her never-ending fount of genius ideas.

Moral of the story here is that valentines can be for anyone, as they are simply an expression of the creativity of their creator and the love and appreciation we have for the people in our lives. Valentine's Day isn't just for lovers. It's for Palentines, too. I think Edith and Martha would be in accord.

(Stay tuned for some news about my soon-to-be-on-press March valentines, as part of a year-round line of valentine cards.)

Attention Deficit

I've tried three times unsuccessfully to finish watching a movie I started over a week ago. It's not a bad story line, the cast is phenomenal, the soundtrack, pretty dynamite. But, I sit down on the couch, and it's not five minutes before my mind is a million scattered places. I turn on my computer, and before I know it, I've clicked open five windows and started three separate emails to friend/co-worker/business contacts A, B and C. I'm a mess who is finding it increasingly difficult to get lost in any one else's story.

Oh, and you better believe I ordinarily love me a good story. I think we were all made with ears for narrative. Our minds to bear-hug tales of adventure and intrigue.

Sure, we're inclined to get wrapped up in the glory of cinematic/literary characters as they experience conflict, come out better for the story they've lived. But, right now, I'm pretty tuned in right now to writing my own story. I can't decide if it's right or wrong. Part of me thinks it seems a bit vain and ego-centric. I want so badly for the book of my life to be a page-turner.

Donald Miller seems to think that there are times that call for turning away from the screen and to our own lives. There are times to reflect on life as it was, as it could be and there are still other times, to live our present days in a way that will make Hollywood (and all its fancy plots) jealous of the stories we tell.

I Got To Leave

This morning, I walked into Woodlawn High School for my DISCO tutoring appointment. As soon as I ascended the main stair case, I was met with a hall monitor, who matched my gaze and then directed me through the metal detector. I checked in at the front office, where sat a row of antsy-looking students and a crowd of school administrators. I walked down the hall, down the stairs, and around the corner to Ms. Walker's room, before I met with another monitor who took my name, questioning my purpose for being there.

Admittedly, I was a little annoyed.

In my Young Life days, I was oft-mistaken for a high school student-- once, almost taken to the principal's office for a dress code violation before I found my voice to say, "Wait! I don't go here."

So, today, I didn't think too much of the questioning glances. Until.

I saw Ms. Walker's eyes. "There's been a gunman here," she blurted out. "We're on lockdown, and I'm scared." There would be no tutoring today, I should just go home. Be careful, and go home.

So, with trepidation in my step, I thanked her, allowed her to escort me past the posted guard and scooted out to my car again. I got to leave. But, they had to stay. Ms. Walker, a school full of innocents, a staff of teachers and administrators. I got to exit to return to my safe living room couch, but they are there, sitting anxiously in hard plastic chairs.

I'm here, safe and warm. They are there, wondering and waiting if the angry gun-holder will return for vengeance.

I feel powerless to help, incapable of understanding. But, I know that I can pray God's peace and protection over His children in those halls. I can ask you to join with me now, too, as you sit safe.

The Magic Number

According to last month's issue of Real Simple magazine, seven is "the maximum number of tasks that should be on a daily to-do list to avoid mental overflow." Good advice. I'm going to try it. Today is a day to:

1. Finish up two magazine articles I've been working on (does that count as just one? We'll say yes for the sake of this exercise).

2. Finish watching this movie that has taken me three separate evenings to complete.

3. Set aside (at least) thirty minutes to read.

4. Make a grocery list to plan for an upcoming visit from family.

5. Cut out paper hearts.

6. Clean the kitchen.

7. Breathe.

This whole reclaiming simplicity, it's going to be a struggle, but here's hoping...

This is What It's Like

To borrow from a stand-by calm-me-down musician, Denison Witmer, .... exaggerated sigh here...."this is what it's like, finding your feet again."

I've finally had a morning off to breathe, walk, at-home cook, rest and regain the composure I very quickly seem to have lost in the midst of the last few days.

Deep breaths, time alone, time to think. Yes, this is just what the doctor ordered for my regaining of some perspective. On my walk this morning, I found myself strolling and singing (as I often do on my neighborhood walk. If you catch me in the act, I won't be ashamed of it, either) to the words to this song:

This is what it's like

Finding your feet again

The part of you that couldn't

Finally thinks you can...

You're falling asleep again

Part of you a dreamer

Part of you is dreamt

Go now in the light of your God

Go now in the love of your God

Go now in the peace of your God

Go now in the joy of your God.

I'm surely not claiming to have gotten a handle on the busyness of my life at present. I'm not writing to tell you that I've got the answers, and it's plain and simple. Because, let me tell you. It sure as hell isn't.

But, this is me, writing to you from my cluttered kitchen table, as I claim a few minutes of sitting before I rush off to the next packed portion of my day, I am trying.

I am seeking to live a more focused life.

I am looking to live less frantically, more purposefully.

I am hoping to waste less time.

Invite more friends over for lingering suppers.

Go on longer, less-hurried walks.

Find my feet again.